Jay sought my help because he wanted to get married and have
children, yet the relationship of his dreams seemed to elude him. When I
first met Jay, he was an attractive, creative, brilliant and successful
businessman in his middle 30’s. And he had a great sense of humor. It
wasn’t that women weren’t attracted to him. He had no trouble having
first dates with interesting, intelligent, and attractive women. But it never
went anywhere. Jay was baffled.

When I first started to counsel Jay, he was very quiet. It felt like pulling
teeth to get him to share anything with me, especially his feelings. He
stayed in his head, brilliant in his ability to articulate, but flat and
unemotional. He words were carefully planned out and delivered. He
seemed to always be tense. It was very hard to connect with him.

“Jay, something seems to be in the way of your spontaneity. Are you
aware of how carefully you pick your words?”

“Yes.”

“There must be a good reason you do this. Do you know what that is?”

“I don’t want to say the wrong thing. I don’t want to make a fool of
myself.”

“And what are you afraid will happen if you say the wrong thing or make
a fool of yourself?

“I will be rejected.”

“So most of the time in conversation your intention is to avoid rejection?”

“Yes. I’m terrified of rejection. I will do anything to avoid it.”

“Jay, what are you telling yourself it means if someone rejects you?”

“It means that they don’t like me because I’m inadequate and
unworthy.”

“So in your mind, everyone, especially attractive women, have the
power to define your adequacy and worth?”

“Yeah, I guess so.”

“So when you are with women, your intention is to have control over
how they feel about you so they won’t reject you. Yet you seem to get
rejected over and over. How do you account for that?”

” I guess I’m just inadequate.”

“Jay, how old do you feel when you are being so careful about what you
say? How old were you when you started to do this?”

“I guess when I was about 14, when I started being interested in girls. I
wanted to make sure that I made a good impression.”

“What made you believe that they wouldn’t like you if you were just
you?”

“Well, for one thing my older brother was always putting me down,
telling me I was a dork.”

“So you learned to believe that you were not okay for who you really are
- that you had to pretend to be other than you are?”

” Yes, I think that’s correct. I always feel that I have to impress people.”

“Jay, when you then get rejected, aren’t they rejecting your created ego
self rather than your real, authentic Self? Isn’t it your wounded 14 year
old ego self that is inadequate, rather than your brilliant, creative, funny,
successful Self? Aren’t you trying to hide your true Self because you
decided, from many early experiences such as that with your brother,
that you are inherently inadequate?”

“Yes, I don’t think that who I really am is good enough. So I always have
to be careful about what I say.”

“Yet the few times in our sessions when you have forgotten to watch
what you are saying, you are incredible - funny, insightful, interesting,
and totally endearing. Your true Self is completely lovable and worthy.
Yet you spend so much energy trying to hide him, squashing him down
in your efforts to avoid rejection. If you were to really get to know and
appreciate who you really are, you would stop worrying about rejection!
You would know that you are just fine, and that if someone rejects you,
it’s more about them than it is about you.”

As Jay did the inner work to reclaim his beautiful essence, his true Self,
his fears of rejection gradually diminished. And, of course, when he was
able to be authentic instead of controlled and controlling, everything in
his life changed, including his relationships with women. After two years
of satisfying dating, Jay found the woman of his dreams.

Margaret Paul, Ph.D. is the best-selling author and co-author of eight
books, including “Do I Have To Give Up Me To Be Loved By You?” and
“Healing Your Aloneness.” She is the co-creator of the powerful Inner
Bonding healing process. Learn Inner Bonding now! Visit her web site
for a FREE Inner Bonding course:
http://www.innerbonding.com
at margaret@innerbonding.com. Phone Sessions Available.

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